Which way do I go?

Pain, I swallow I cannot keep it down
Hate, I swallow I cannot keep it down

Down

You, I hate you, I cannot keep you down
You, I'll rape you, I cannot keep it down

Down

You before me, I can't take any more
Of what you have to offer, my ears are sore
Leave my feelings in a heap by the door
Can't go up any further, come crashing back down